HappY SunDae!^^

Today is a good day!

as for me,

today i didnt think of any sad things or things that make me no mood..

i really throw them into a dustbin...

i just hope to succeed in everything i do...

and make all my wish come true!

thx to all my friend who care me for always..

i really appreciate u guys..

really thx..

i know u guys always try ur best to make me smile...

help to solve my probs..

give me advices..

and u guys always tell me..

thats what friend for!

hahaz..

*^^*

I do hope ALL my friends can live happily and healthily for always!

Dear My Friends(Lavendar's Blogs)

I'm sorrie...

i know u guys sure dont know what i m thinking..

and i really understand what u mean..

i know u just dont want let me hurt na..

thx friends..

just to let u guys know i m okie..

no need worry me okie?

i will be fine...

its true that i didnt tell u the things that bothered me for so long..

and i thk that will be a secret that follow me forever..

and i dont think i wil say it out to anyone..

so..

just let it over okie?

really no need worry me..

thats will be my worst memory after all...

i will..

try my very best to forget it...

really~

and thats the reason lead my want to have sth that u've said..

and..

nevermind now...

it wil be just..

fine...

owh...again~

lame!!!

i ve got nothing to do....

want study, no mood...

watch movie...got lar...with friend...

want singing, voice not sweet liao....

want chatting, everyone busy..

want design, got idea..but lazy to draw lar...

want post blog..

dont know want write what...

wooh...

lame lame lame chims...

AAAAAAARGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!

hate hate hate myself!!!

this few days almost becum ku bao ler...

owes feel want cry nia...

eventhough i got friends...and family..

but...dont know y..

i still feel lonely..

and i scare that feeling...

i really scare...

once i thk of it..

i just wanna cry..

i dont know y...

and i owes feel no an quan gan...

haiz..

hate this...

maybe...

becos...

Me?Or Ah Deh?oR Hui?XD

After having the new hair style,

most of my classmates thought i m Deh,

5s4 de jiu thought i m Hui,

phew~

i m Geraldine lar....

haha....

actually i thought ppl will think i becum guai guai after the new haircut,

but not...

they think it suits me..haha..

great!

thx!^^...

全新的我!

今天啊，

心血来潮，突然想去剪头发，
结果，
就越剪越短!

哈哈~

不过

我倒感觉轻松了很多，

忘了不开心的事，

从拾信心，

做一个更好的我!^^

希望啊~

从今天开始，

我能变得更有自信咯!

可以不要吗?

i suddenly still feel wanna cry...

i dont know y...

my tears just drop....

i really really dont know y....

just feel uneasy in my heart..

because of...

what sorts of reason?

i dont know.

i just know...

i want to cry!!!

lil heart,

can u please dont make me cry ler..

unless u tell me a reason ler..

i really dont know y...

lil mind also dont know think bout what...

it makes me feel ...

empty....

Tiredz...

This morning,

i went for link camp meeting...

only then i know how few committee plus working committee are...

phew~

@.@

and rush to another meeting at the same time..

really dont know what to do lar.

they also seem blur blur like that..

woo...pengsan~

afternoon we go out...

eat just not much...

go back sch train their marching...

aiks..

old member marching arr...

more to improve eh...

dont drop then up then drop again...

aduii~

their command stil ok lar..

some quite good...

jia you ar..

then ler..

flag day give out tins..

woo...

mess!~

one of da parent stil brg da child here complaint our activity too much..

aiti.~..

she dont want go jiu dont want lar..

need complaint about us to her parent mar..

woo...

still cry in front of us..

sia soi ar...

i dont want mention who it is here..

those on the spot de jiu know lo...

haiz...

really...

during marching time jiu a lil bit feel wan pengsan liao..

now stil add in all the mess..

haiz.

and one more..

one member didnt bring back the clothes for activity backdrop..

just left it thr..

hai...

u guys too much money to buy new one de ha...

then why not i just throw it away ler..

brg home make me heavy..

ish..

headache chimz...

aargh...

really no mood lar...>.<

我最后的勇气!

今天，

我很高兴，

因为和你聊天，

虽然，

没聊到什么，

可是，

我还是满足了，

原来，

我所要的就那么简单。

我很高兴有你的八卦，

很高兴你愿意听我的心事，

很高兴你愿意和我聊天，

回想起你的关心和温柔体贴，

爱逗人，安全感，真的，感觉很好。

看你现在自责，

我也帮不上什么忙，

也许因为我不了解你，

我却只想在你伤心时，

给你一个拥抱，

给你安慰，

可是，

我却都只能为你祈祷。

我今天，

在还有勇气的最后一次，

和你说，

我喜欢你。

也许，这是最后一次了，

希望你能找到属于你的幸福，

快乐的过每一天!

还记得我告诉过你的天使吗?

她会给你幸福和祝福，永远。

你会是我永远都无法忘记的一个!

My Holiday Work!

*My Fashion Dreamz~*

Drawings~

Colourings~

My Fashion Runway...

my dreamz...

my piece....

真的不想懂得了~

今天，

好友和他分手了。

有点为她难过，

但是也替她开心。

难过呢，

是因为她和他无缘啊；

开心呢，

是她终于不再为那件事而天天不开心的，

终于解脱了。

我想，

她应该已松了口气吧~

从她的经历，

我已不想再懂得什么是喜欢，

什么是爱，

也已没信心去面对了。

也许，

让时间证明一切吧!

当它来的时候，

就接受；

走的时候，

就应勇敢面对啊。

毕竟这是我们当初做的选择，

不要为我们的选择后悔，

应该对我们所做的选择负责任。

朋友，

加油吧~

相信你会找到更好的!

现在啊~

你已回到单身行列了，

欢迎来找我吧~

最多，

你得牺牲请客而已啦!

哈哈~

*你最近还好吗*

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话

地址写的是心底你能不能收到它

天有点冷

风有点大

城市宁静而喧哗

这一个冬天

我得一个人走回家

问自己习惯了吗

没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大

有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗

是不是也在思念褃挣扎

你说会记得我还记得吗

你最近还好吗

忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗

如果真不得已

忘了我快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达

旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬

昨天远了明天还长

回忆模糊但巨大

这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

问自己习惯了吗

没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大

有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗

是不是也在思念褃挣扎

你说会记得我还记得吗

你最近还好吗

忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗

如果真不得已

忘了我快向快乐出发

你最近还好吗

是不是也在思念褃挣扎

你说会记得我还记得吗

你最近还好吗

忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗

如果真不得已

忘了我快向快乐出发

I 've got no story at all...

I m the author of my life...

I m going to write a story bout my life..

but..

it seems that i got no idea where is the starting point..

but i know there will be endless road...

until the day i fall...

many ways to choose,

but i choose the most simple way...

many friends around...

but i choose only true friends...

many things in my mind,

but i just want to throw it all towards the sky..left it empty...

many feelings in my heart,

but ..i just pretend not to understand it..

keep thinking of..

just let it be~

only today i realise,

i've got no story at all...

cause..

i choose to forget my history..

i choose to left my mind empty..

i choose to walk through my life in a simple way..

which complicated will never approach me...

which history will never let me sad...

which all the thinkings in my mind just...

feels like flying in the sky...

freely...

*爱来过*

我 看不开 也放不开 因为我曾见过 爱情真的盛开

我 要等待 一直等待 等那一个夜晚 从回忆回来

当你拥抱着我 那一瞬间 我象飞到空中

而当我缓缓降落 我不再是我 我有了梦 我在梦中

爱来过 来得那么美 那么凶

欢呼着 从我生命 狠狠碾过

连遗憾 也都不争气的 珍惜成笑容

爱来过 让我完整过 幸福过

怎么能轻易就放他走 我不想解脱 我只怕错过

我就是要等你回来 爱我

寂寞喧哗 我不害怕 因为我只听得见对你的牵挂

世界很大 会容得下 我这小小傻傻顽固的信仰

你有没有过承诺 我已忘了 那已不重要了

反正我都会守候 在梦中守候 我最唯一 最美的梦

爱来过 来得那么美 那么凶

欢呼着 从我生命 狠狠碾过

连遗憾 也都不争气的 珍惜成笑容

爱来过 让我完整过 幸福过

怎么能轻易就放他走 我不想解脱 我只怕错过

我就是要等你回来 如果需要动用奇迹来交换美丽

就让泪蒸发 下成雪花

和我一起在爱中被融化

Oops!..It does work!^^

Today,

i just cried for 45 minutes..

break my own record...

i never cry for so long...

til me eyes wanna swollen..

aiks..

i just release all...

all those rubbish which is in my mind for so long..

and shouting does work!

not shout outside lar.nanti kena ppl throw rubbish..

hha..

shout in msn!^^

thx one person for listening to all my rubbish..

for accepting the rubbish dump from me..

^^..

thx ..for lending me ur time..

thx for helping me alotes to solve my unit's prob...

thx ..

i ve ask u to forget everything here for that 3 months time..

u really need to do that..^^

but i wont forget na..

i wont forget everything that u advise..

u teach...u help..^^

really...

honestly...^^

always da handsome lil monkey!

all the best!

A lil wishes...

I just feel everything are so messed up!

I wanna change!

but...

i just dont know how to change..

and dont know what should i change?!

my mind is just..empty...

my heart is just..cold...

my feeling is just...no feeling...

i dont know why..

i just feel like wanna lay on the soft grassy field..

watch the twinkle little star shining upon the sky...

with a bright moonlight...

which comets fly through...

i could just throw my wish to them..

all of my wishes are granted...

a feeling a cold breeze..

a feeling of little happiness...

a feeling of forgetting everything...

but...

its all just a wonderful thought..

which is just a dream for always...

can just anyone lend me ur shoulder?

even for just 5 minutes...

my tears will bring all the sadness gone...

and left it with happiness..

隐藏

I suddenly think that hide it is better than to show it..

once i showed,

i sure get the negative responds from whole world...

dont know...

maybe everyone's opinion is not the same...

just..

hide ....

it......

is the better way...

confident!

where gone all the confident in me?

look for it!

i must pull it back before it go far away from me!!

i must...

be a better me!

a better leader for my unit!

hope my decision can bring positive effects to the unit..

无事生非，你最在行!

This morning,

i just went into the website..

i saw somebuddy post something there..

which i actually no respond to it..

but...

i slowly wanna get angry with it ler..

i dont know y...

and who is IT that post the things there..

many ppl ask me not to care bout it..

i did...

but i just feel not good..

and i keep thinking..

what is that person wanna mention about...

and who IT is?

put a sirname there..

dare to say me..

but no dare to mention out the full name..

i have make u angry?

or i owe u money?

ish...

say me failure...

but...

what prove that u say me failure?

what about u?

what have u done before?

what u understand bout me?

what u care bout unit now?

what have u contribute to unit that make u feel so 伟大，

till u can say i m a FAILURE?

u try this SEAT before?

u lead the unit before?

if YES,

i wont mind u share with me and teach me how to be as successful as U!

if No,

please..dont make trouble there okie?

无事生非，你最在行!

i m not really angry,

just u give me a feeling u just...无理取闹。

Thats all i can say...

if u wanna continue post those silly things there..

i wont mind..

just u dont kena throw rubbish by others jiu okie liao..

cos that blogspot is not only MINE...

its belongs to all the RC members..

No PC Week~

Argh!!

my pc rosak...

whole week knot online..

knot update my blog..

haiz...

bored chimz..

msg ppl till no credit still no one want reply me..

ish..

what friends are those huh?XD

school day gonna reopen loo...

got holiday jiu just like no holiday...

T.T

hope f4 de funday everything go fine aar..

if got thing must ask us ler..

dont quiet quiet thr ler..

lata everything not good we also susah eh..

..^^..

wish u all good luck yea!!

really miss my buddy that 3 months..ahah.

next week jiu go loo...

take care yea!^^

A better dae~

Today seems to be a better day for me..

at least i didnt feel any pressure yet..

which will come soon..

today is the most relax day i have ever had...

just go shopping with cousins..

celebrate Fion's Birthday...

and eat eat eat...

just to forget everything!!!

owh..

just give out the fun day post to form 4..

i hope they can do well this time..

hope they can learn something which wil be useful for their year end camp!

form 4 must jia you oh!

anything i will be thr to help na!

even knot help i wil oso 挖 ex leaders out to help!

wakakaz...

i thk they also volunteer to do so..arent they?^^

nah..

other than that..

i thk i shud thx 3 of da ex leaders lor..

haha..

who had helped me this few days..

when i really in a down mood...

haha..

i wont say who are those 3 lar..

if they got read my blog maybe they wil know loe..^^

really thx for helping me solve my unit's prob!haha..

now i really getting beter..^^

i will try to stand up be strong...

do my best..

^^

3 months cuming i gonna miss someone..

wakaka..

^^

m i useless?

i just have a feeling,

i looks useless..

arent i?

i cant even manage well a unit..

eventhough teacher say i had done my best...

but...

i scare i will lead members to wrong road..

and they will follow my wrong steps...

i notice something...

me this HSL..

so useless..

its real...

i really different from other badge of XHSL...

they no need to do things till so xin ku...

and yet..

most of the things they can just ask members do it...

me?

phew~

totally not same aar..

i got ask member do..

then ler..

give sum reason..

then equavalent i need to do all the things myself..

i thk i help them too much..

make them knot independant...

haiz..

its all my fault...

really a useless HSL i AM!

是我没用吗?

今天，

我竟然为一件事而哭，

也许，

对有些人来说是小事，

可是我却为那小事哭。

对我而言，

那是很难解决的事，

我已尽力去改变它，

可是就是没人愿意配合我。

我在你们心中地位那么低吗?

我的话不值得你们听吗?

我有让你们那么讨厌吗?

为什么你们就不去想想呢?

想想为什么我要叫你们那样做呢?

唉~

有时，

我那很累的感觉又回来了，
已经有一段时间，

我不去想我很累，

想放弃的那种想法，

可是你们却让我很失望。

请你们记得你们应该做的事好吗?

不是每一件我都能帮你们收尾的，

也不须要我一直提醒你们去做，
请自动一点好吗?

我是人，

不是机器人，
我也会有累得一天好吗?

Haiz..why like that ne?~

Haiz...

I m getting tired of their attitude liao ler..

Y always i tell them to do earlier,

but they stil do it last minute?

wont they think of the reason i ask them to do things earlier?

First reason is..

everything need to gone throught teachers de ler..

if teacher not approve,

everything will be gone!

Second reason is..

all of u always like to do things last minute,

then this one knot done..that one need time to do like that..

how can i trust u all to do it last minute ler?

Third reason is..

once i ask u guys do earlier,

u guys always keep DELAYING!!!

got time dont want to do..

give me all sorts of silly reason...

then always ask me to postpone the date of passing up the things i want,

how can i do that?

i m fed up!

please change attitude ler~

i knew last time i was like that,

maybe this cause u guys also follow my wrong steps..

but this year i promise to myself that i wont do last minute job again..

but..

this unit is all of us de...

the only few of us change is not enuf de..

u guys know?

i know not everyone can change this in one time,

but please try!!!

u dont try u wont know!!

i fast, u slow...

how can the things get to be done?

i really dont know what can i do to change this situation to a better one ..

at least before i "retire".....

HapPie BiRtHDay!

Happy Birthday to Eric!

My Friend...

My Friend,

I know what happen now sure will make u sad na..

dont be too sad k?

everything will be fine...

take care...

she will be happie if she see u live happy too..

remember,

u still have many friends and family too!

Happie Always k?

i will accompany u na...

Gone Crazie!

Finally finish the first test!

phew~

haha...

today quite busy..

just right after exam need busy with RC projects ler..>.<

weather is changing~

my mood also changing eh!

these few days happie...

i bet next week i will be mad...

cos...(some reason lar..knot say here..)

anyway,

just everything i planned can be carry out smoothly~

and the members can be more guai~

the leaders arr..

nth lar..

all very good!haha..

will the miracles happen on me?

will it be true?

should i trust?

aiks!gone crazy!

*~~Tear Drops On My Guitar~**

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about

And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny

That I can't even see anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,

I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star

He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?

And there he goes, so perfectly,

The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love

Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light

I'll put his picture down and maybe

Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart

He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

He's the time taken up, but there's never enough

And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

Dear Friends(Lavenders' blog)

I m glad that u willing to help me...

and

actually i dont think i help u much...

i scare i might lead u to worse conditions only..

i m sorrie~

and

i m okie...

dont worry k?

i sure can get through it

and i will be brave to face the reality~

i must be brave to face it..

although i always want to run away ler...

i understand what i m thinking of..

i know u will say me very 矛盾，

i tell u..

its true..

i really dont know what i want..

and i really dont know what would happen..

i just cant stop thinking of it..

maybe..

its just my true feeling..

胃痛考试，真难熬~

今天应该算是我最辛苦的考试吧!

不是因为不会做，

而是一边胃痛一边考试，

简直就无法形容~

我还不曾试过这样辛苦的考试，

今天总算"体会"到了。。

而且，

还发冷~

冷到冰~

是天气还是我自己啊?

唉~

讨人厌的胃痛!

放过我吧!

不要让我每次都这样，

真的难熬~T.T

HapPie BiRthdaY!生日快乐!

只想在这里祝:

Koko Loi--Chung Wui

&

Ex-HSL--Sze Howe

生日快乐!

一定要快快乐乐噢!

千万不要以为全世界都讨厌你们，

以为自己不好，

要记得，

还是会有人喜欢你们，

记得你们的好啊!

你们依然还是那么帅气!

哈哈~

愿你们天天开心，

身体健康噢!^^

最重要!

梦想成真!=)

Best Friend! I will be there!^^

No matter how the result is,

i will be there!

i hope both of u will be fine,

and he can find his own true feeling soon,

i dont hope to see u sad and hurt

cos i know its hard to go through that sad time,

as i know its hard to forget it..

but,

i will still be there for u!

maybe i m look small in ur heart,

and knot help u much,

but i will still try my best to cheer u up!^^

anyway,

think positively,

maybe everything will stil be fine..

and..

u will need him more..

dont worry yea!^^..

once u get hurt or sad,

u can look for me!..

i m always there!^^

trust me!

and

i promise not to let u be alone!

my best friend!