I've failed!

Today i suppose to go out with friends...

but end up i went to watch CJ7 with my best friend....

a lil bit regret i dare to say...

i hate myself...

i really dont know what can i do...

i scare...

i scare of losing my friends...

i scare i will be alone forever...

actually i promise my crewz to go visiting earlier on..

but i reject them just yesterday...

and i didnt mean to do so..

i really have my own reason..

i just hope u guys understand...

not u guys faults..

its my own prob...

i really hate myself...

i hate to have that post...

which really bring me lots of probs...

only i can do is to let ppl hate me...

scare me...and need to solve all the probs..

haiz...

i know i only got one chance to do these...

but sumtimes i really felt tired....

not the only once i have think bout this things..

i have had think of it many times..

and i try to persue myself not to let this bothering me again

from now on...

but i always knot do so...

i failed~T.T