Confusing feeling~

I really dont know how to say...
I dont know whether its true or just in my mind...
I like u becoz of u r my friend?
or..
I like u becoz of u care bout me?
or...
I like u becoz of i really like u?
I couldnt figure out of it...
I really ran out of ideas....
Cant u just hate me?
If u choose to hate me,

maybe i wont think bout it so much...

and i wont care bout it so much...
but,
u still cant do it...
and u've said this make u harder to hate me...
why?
please~
let me go!
my heart couldnt make any more decision...
it need some rest...