My 100th...a sad feeling...

I know they always do better than us...

i know how u guys think of our unit..

i got see their blog..

but..

do u ever think that ..

do THEY ever organize any activities for interunit or interschool?

do they?

even if now i want my members to organize,

i know they can..

but..

need see the time too!

not say want then is want..

u guys always know how to suggest ideas..

and i know it will be useful..

but..

please..

give them sumtime..

if u guys want quality things..

then sure need sumtimes to plan for it...

organize it systematically mar..

u guys always want fast..

thats what i know..

but now..

each of them at least got 2 to 3 jobs to do..

and plus summore...

they have others clubs work and homework..

additional ..examz is cuming..

i know if i tell u guys all this thing..

u wil say its just silly reason..

but..

use brain to think lar..

so li hai u guys go do lo..

dunt give them too much pressure lor..

they already want burst ler..

i dont want my member quit one by one..

end up..

whole unit fall..

think ba..

if u guys say its my fault..

then ..

i ve got nth more to say..

i also tired..

being blamed for so much..

i know i m not good in leading but..

i ve tried my best..

i really tired...

really really tired..

i know my members and leaders also do as much as i done..

and maybe even more than me..

they also human being..

got emo..

got feeling..

need some rest too..

please ..

give them sum time...

Disappointed..

Lil Panda..

seems like every clubs' leaders starting to pass things down to new leaders..

but ..

we still cant..

it really tired...

damn damn tired..

scolded them just today..

scolded be4 but everything seems no use..

as they forget just so easily~..

waste my voice,

my time..

want pass down my job to the one i trusted..

well-disciplined, at least..hardworking and good attitude..

also hard..

harder than to study...

phew~

i really tired liao arr...

hope that 3 months fast fast come..

i just want.

throw everything to U!

hope u guys can change attitude ba..

i really hope..

use ur brain..

use ur own energy..

solve the probs ba..

hope u guys manage to get best unit lor..

i really..

nth to say anymore..

too tired..

tired on keep scolding the same things..

and u guys are repeating it all over again..

sum more..

attitude is changing to worse..

i really dont know how u guys are going to survive..

with such attitude..

childish..only thing i can say....

*Kuching Chapter AGM *

today is the Chapter AGM~

before that i was worrying of knowing the result..

but at last..

i was relieve ..

we got..

Best Youth Unit in Kuching!

Best Prepared Annual Report 2007!

Best Collector Unit For Flag Day 2007!

Hope next year they still can get it..

as for now..

we already have it for 14 consecutive years!!

^^

congrate to all the members and leaders..

keep it up!

Busy busy busy~

Phew~

examz is cuming!!..

busy revision..

and yet need training for the Teachers' Day Demo..and for Sports day..

woo...

damn tired..

even plan the time to train already want half dead ler..

and yet still need members can go de..

haiz...

dont knot can find 33 members mar...

adui~

say easier than do..

and yet they all so BUSY!..

tired...

think of one training still need think of so many things..

haiz..

my brain want burst ler...

>.<

*再一次拥有*

再一次拥有

作词:devin 作曲:willie 编曲:吴庆隆演唱:龚诗嘉

我想念去年的冬天

下着雪的那一夜

你给的温柔紧握的双手

温暖整个寒冬

失去了曾经的拥有

在你离开以后

带走了笑容只留下寂寞

忘了幸福是什么

*没有你的夜特别的漆黑

只能闭上双眼去感觉

没有我的夜

谁在你身边

代替了那个从前

~能不能再听一次你说爱我

回到还在你怀里的时候

能不能让我再一次拥有

曾属于我的温柔

能不能让我再一次拥有

曾属于我的温柔

小熊熊

就算失去了曾经拥有过的，

它依然相信能再一次拥有的!

Time to grow up and time to wake up!

Why such small project will cause u guys to be like that?

I still thought u all can work as a team?!

Its time to wake up!

No more arguement!

Do u all know u guys are the future leaders?

and there left few more months we will be passing all the things to u all!

U guys think now already consider busy and get frustrated?

Until the day u guys really busy,

then maybe u will realise that..

before that was just a warm up!

NO more counting on who do more and who cannot help at all!

u all work as a team!

i know some of u holding too many things in hand,

and..

i thk if u guys really cant afford to do that all..

please..

tell us...

dont just get everything then...

at last..

every projects will end up with worst result!

and never think that u all are very good and experiences..

this is because till u guys leading time..

everything is ready for u!

not that u prepare it urself!

always remember that please!

and..

never blaming ur partner who maybe helpless in ur heart..

but maybe..

he or she do more than u !

I do hope u guys can wake up earlier!

u guys really have no time to waste on such small matters!

u guys think very easy har?be mature a bit lar...

just i heard it from the leaders..

gt members complain y thr is more marching then first aid..

i dont y this could happen..

and they even ask for first aid course..

but..

they didnt even sit for EIRC yet..

and..

i knew the leaders got taught first aid before marching ..

its just a matter of..

did they listen?

or they just go ther..

sitting and talking?

i dont know what they are thinking about..

if they think they themselves so good..

y not just ask their sis and bro teach them..

dun think i dont know..

i know u guys want learn first aid..

i also want the member improve first aid skill..

but ..

even we got so many marching for u guys..

u guys marching still kns..

what for?

this call as train for u all de discipline also?

keep teaching on same thing..

u guys already knt do it well..

still dare talk that..

if u guys want first aid course..

no prob..

make sure u guys learn everything that leaders taught..

if once i give out ques to test u guys..

and u guys get 100%..

i sure organize every weekly meeting..

if u failed eirc..

dont talk to me..

haiz.

sienx aar..

u guys think so easy to lead u all har..

no think de har..

just talk like that..

u guys..

really need more tough experience then u all will be mature lar..

haiz..

hope throught those camps and courses this year.

could help u all lor..

next time the unit is u all de liao..

i want teach also got limit..

i just hope u all.

try..

dont just think just too simply..

too farer away.

it is not really easy as u all think...

please..

we are tired...

forgiveness..

Today,

i heard my friend say..

(***) said my bad things behind while i was not on the spot that day..

i know my friend wont cheat me..

actually before that..

i dont quite believe what they say about him..

since Form 1 i knew him..

in rc...

he was a good friend..

and a responsible friend too..

but now..

what i ve seen..

and what ive heard..

i really dont know what response should i give..

he is just..

making the whole world hate him..

is that all he want to?

or..

i just dont understand him well that time..

we have been a good partner in rc...

we play, we jokes..

but now..

think of his attitude..

i just..

hard to explain ..

eventhough his best friend before.

who cares most bout him.

had taught him to change..

but..

he lost that friend after that..

just after that advice..

now..

he lost more friend..

just becos he didnt take ppls advices..

and just do follow his heart..

he never think of ppls feeling..

never think of y ppl treat him like this..

never care what ppl had sacrifice for him..

just becos of his ATTITUDE!

he is just..SELFISH!!

but now..

i just think of..

he trust me..

but i lie to him..

i was sorry bout it..

but..

did he say sorry to any of his friend who he hurt before?

did he?

if he did,

then i will think of telling him the truth..

but..

if he didnt..

i dont think i will reveal the truth to him..

i think..

wait till he got a lesson..

then..

by that time..

he will regret of what he had done..

and..

by that time..

he will change..

i trust..

he will..

just that chance havent come..

i believe he will still change one day..

but maybe till that day..

i wont be around him again...

we maybe in the same earth..

but different place...

i hope..

he will..

lastly..

i will forgive him whatever he done..

cos i know..

i hardly could find any friend like him..

and..

once i knew him..

he will be my friend forever..

说不出的心情

现在，

什么都不想说，

什么都不想做，

只想哭哭一下，

休息一下，

莫明其妙的心情，

很难形容就是了，
唉~

是压力吗?

还是，

什么事情是想不开的，

我自己也不清楚，

总之，
心里非常不舒服就对了。

很累，

很想休息，

却又害怕再发恶梦，

不敢再睡了。

很烦却一句话也说不出口，

真的累了，

让我休息一下吧!

* Death Note Pix!*

*Death Note*

Am i?

Today there was few lessons free..

without teacher..

our class is noisier than the market...

phew!~@.@

i help friend to prepare the quizzes things..

my friend suddenly say..

i m too quiet..

am i?

and she ask me whether got anything happened?

i myself also dont know y..

i just..

seldom talk in class now..

no topics?

no friends?

or just..

dont feel wanna talk..

i just want to be quiet..

maybe...

just to let my friend know..

there is nothing happen..

so no needa worry bout me k?

thx for caring..

用心...

今天，

心情总算不错，

不知道为什么，

开始想用心去了解每一件事，

用心体会每个人的心情，

用心对待每个人，

不再忽略朋友，

不再乱发脾气，

不再沮丧，

用心去看这个世界，

用心去看我以前错过的许多美好的事。

凡事都由心开始，

用心去感觉，

或许，

会有不同的想法和以往没有的感觉。

虽然，

偶尔需要做一些我不喜欢的事情，

可是，

从那些工作中，

我却能获得一些快乐和信任，

那，

就算再辛苦，也是值得的。^^

Mondae again~~

Phew~

today is really a tired day for me..

cos i didnt sleep well too last nite..

now recover from sick na..

just tireds...

tmr still a brand new day~

hope tonite can sleep better...aiks..

@.@

Finalee...

Finalee its over!!

then tonite i can have a good sleep !!^^..

last nite really cant sleep well..

today is exhausted already..

energy from 70% drop till 20%..

gastric in the noon..

eat only once this few days..

plus headache..

i say i sick..

few ppl trust only..

only ma best best friend and few of those best friends nia..

haha..

even member thought i go to sleep in the room..

in fact i was sick that day..

really headache..

adui~

now everything is over...

actually still got acitivities cary on..

but..

only need give advise then..

with form 4 good luck!^^

thx to exleaders for help out also..

and the committees cooperation!

Tmr....

Tmr is the first aid competition loe..

busy for so long..

hope everything is fine tmr...

those who do last minute work really need pray hard loe..

include the AJk...

..^^..

well,

good luck for every of the members and leaders!

What for?

I already sick ler..

pia till sick?weather's fault?

dont know..

what for i pia so much??

and yet ppl not worry bout it..

it is their matter.

not mine...

i suppose i no need do so much..

or worry too much..

the ppl who suppose to worry it..

just take it easy..

i really cant do anything to it liao ler..

if this is they want to...

i m tired...

i know thats part of my responsibility...

but..

it u guys' too!!

*飞向札幌的班机*-JS

终于开始相信

爱情不只是频率的问题

我们需要一点空间呼吸

我太过依赖你

已经不知不觉失去自己

怎么重新设定我们间的关系

我还没那种勇气

奋不顾身离开你

就当作我暂时去旅行

飞向札幌的班机

抗拒地心引力

逃离虚构幸福的自己

5000英呎的空气

心渐渐失去重力

冷锋过境

我们的爱情

北半球的天气

像你不安心情捉摸不定

时而刮风下雨

下一秒又放晴

我曾那么爱你

就算失去了尊严都可以

曾几何时我却开始讨厌自己

我还没那种勇气

奋不顾身离开你

就当作我暂时去旅行

飞向札幌的班机

抗拒地心引力

逃离虚构幸福的自己

5000英呎的空气

心渐渐失去重力

冷锋过境

我们的爱情

Tiredz Sundae...

Really a tired day...

just wanna sleep and do nothing...

feeling headache and unwell...

too tired...

maybe its time to rest..

but..

can i?

listen to musicz..

think of many things..

really...

feel like wanna take of the "memory card"in my brain..

hope i will never remember all the things as they usually did..

then i no need care so much...

as THEY DID!

*N0t Ready 2 MakE N!ce*-Dixie Chicks

Forgive, sounds good

Forget, I’m not sure I could

They say time heals everything

But I’m still waiting

I’m through with doubt

There’s nothing left for me to figure out

I’ve paid a price

And I’ll keep paying

I’m not ready to make nice

I’m not ready to back down

I’m still mad as hell and

I don’t have time to go round and round and round

It’s too late to make it right

I probably wouldn’t if I could

‘Cause I’m mad as hell

Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I know you said

Can’t you just get over it

It turned my whole world around

And I kind of like it

I made my bed and

I sleep like a baby

With no regrets and

I don’t mind sayin’

It’s a sad sad story when a mother will teach her

Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger

And how in the world can the words that I said

Send somebody so over the edge

That they’d write me a letter

Sayin’ that I better shut up and sing

Or my life will be over

I’m not ready to make nice

I’m not ready to back down

I’m still mad as hell and

I don’t have time to go round and round and round

It’s too late to make it right

I probably wouldn’t if I could

‘Cause I’m mad as hell

Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I’m not ready to make nice

I’m not ready to back down

I’m still mad as hell and

I don’t have time to go round and round and round

It’s too late to make it right

I probably wouldn’t if I could

‘Cause I’m mad as hell

Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

Forgive, sounds good

Forget, I’m not sure I could

They say time heals everything

But I’m still waiting

HeAdache++Mo0dY >.<

Today is really headache...

dont know y suddenly fall sick haiz...

sometimes hot hot de..

sometimes cold cold de...

as i 've said..

really sick once per month arr..

haiz..

maybe next time i would choose to marry to a doctor liao..

no need pay for the medi fees!..muahaha..

really sick till gone crazie!~..

uh...

sienx aar!..

headache plus no mood lagi...

dont know how~

want shout also no energy...

want cry also feel tired..

want talk to my friend also dont feel like wanna talk...

sorrie to my friend aar..

today put u guys cold...

hope u guys wont mind na..^^..

Hate hate hate U!!!

owh..

i hate that stupid teacher much much much!!!

want me change this,

want me change that...

change liao still not satisfy..

u think so easy har..

u go do it urself lar..

ish...

let u feel it then u know!

even i change aar..

u also this date knot go..that date knot go de lar..

what for i change so much..

even for other teacher also..

u want me exchange urs with them...

then later they knot go..

i need change date again..

really aar..

adui~

i jaga u guys de mattter harder than care for my members and leaders eh..

aiti...

@.@

phew~

now will be the last time i change liao..

if u not satisfy..

u r MOST WELCOME to go change it urself!

then just give to other teacher ler..

so "EASY" de~

p:s/ hope u today kena fool by others then u know!!!muahaha..XD