*My BIG BIG day!*

woo....

today is my big big day!!...

muahaha....

early morning eat 2 eggs and mi sua~

then then..

go school got presents wor....

from my good good friends..

muahaha.....

and thx others for all the wishes!!

and thx those 3 little piggys for chia me go watch HSM3 for free!

muahaha....

then go eat together hor...

and oso..

pai seh for kacau CM jie..ehek...

and thx teacher for the wishes too..^^...

today will be a memorable day for me!

my 17th birthday is the sweetest!

with all the friends in school, teachers too....

my last year in secondary school..

i will miss it very much....

^^...

thx!

this year...

i have a birthday wish....

not for me only..

but for all.....

i wish....

everyone around me including my friends and families....

live happy everyday!

and i want to see u guys smile everyday!

thats only things i want...

*not crazy lar pls..haha....*

to the form 5 friends,

we all jia you in SPM loe!

form 4 leaders...

jia you in the CAmp and RC!

form 3 members,

grow up loe....

dun leave unit during this stage er..^^....

form 2 and form 1 de..guai a bit listen to the leaders ar...

^^..

and oso...

thx to both my brothers....

aha....

and....

the one which i wait whole day...

finally got a msg...of a birthday wishes....

and this really make me happy..^^....

thx alote.!

i m....tired..

well,

today whole day sleep ar...

gastric pain ...

omg~

so pek chek.....

whole day not study..

till nite only go tuition...

haih...........

eat wrong things loe......

no mood ar....

and still heard got members simply say things in blog..

dont know what they think ar.....

so xing fu ordy still want complaint this and that...

till they suffer baru they know lar.....

really no mood want continue help or teach them...

see loe...

maybe untill this year finish in khs..

i think i seldom would cum back le ba..

unless really need my help lo..

before this,

i too fast made conclusion on a person ba...

i m sorry that if i really hurt that person or say that person anything..

cos maybe i say it without knowing the truth behind and just listen to others...

sorry...

and in rc ler..

i dun want made any conclusion or whatever to present leaders ler....

i dun want to get into any trouble or what ler....

i think i m not experience enuf to teach them yet ba..left to the elders one loe....

jus want to tell u guys,

i not fa pi qi or what...or angry....

just....

really no heart to do so....

when got exleaders cum tell me unit in a mess...

i dun know how to answer...

looks like is i not teaching u guys ba....

let u guys man man go explore loe..

maybe will explore sumthing out.....

even got members think we criticize too much on u guys...

but i thk as leaders,

u guys know only criticism will make u guys improve...

lastly,

i only can say..

u guys jia you lo...

listen to ur hsl....

he oso hard to do sumtimes...

i know...

need care u o de feelings....

need think of ways...

so if u guys not cooperate with him..

he really will fall de...

i hope u guys will help him loe....

and please...

do ur own job!

dun ever ask ppl help to do liao..

and dun scare anything lar...

wnat cum find me oso scare..

scare what?

scare i scold u?

in my class?

do i ever do this before?

haih...........

want fins me oso not dare..

end up go find yen haw..

dnot knowwhat r u guys doing..

dun say i not teach u guys or what later...

is u guys sendiri cari de.....

got prob jiu solve it urself lo...

if really knot,

jiu find exleaders loe...

they sure willing to help

jus see how u guys ask for their help..

and how u guys appreciate them loe....

thats all.....

心灰意冷了...

girl,

i know u very tired and want quit ler...

please..

dun give up..

no matter what happen,

we all stand by you ler......

u oso understand their "BAD" attitude...

and manners....

like to say things behind ppl...

and the truth is..

u know they only can say, but not do!!

in some situations,

i know u knot make decisions,

and the ppl who SUPPOSED to MAKE DECISION keep delaying...

thats y many things u knot do.....

and in between,

u suffer a lote.....

and THAT PPL WHO SUPPOSE TO MAKE DECISION DE..

when see me still can smile ler..

but when i see you..

u cant even smile anymore....

and omost want cry..

rite?

say the truth,

i regret...

i regreting for choosing such person b the ppl who make decision....

and let u ppl suffer so much..

and yet..

that person act like nth happen..

i really dont know what he is thinking..

or what decision has he made...

but what i know is...

that person really in a mess ba.....

when he dont know,

he dun want ask...

follow all the other committees loe..

end up?~

ppl say what,

he follow...

when tell him things..

he just nod his head and say ok...

phew~

don konw how to teach ar...

and u...

please...

dun give up k?

if PPL want to say,

let them...

it wont hurt u physically rite?

but i know they do hurt u in ur heart......

they so "8" de...

let them lar...

no potential de ppl jiu only know how to say lo...

who got do things,

who dont..

we all know de..

we can see de....

no need see ,

even GUESS oso can guess tiok lar....

haih......

nvm...

ppl say u post high high or say u "mengampu" or whatever..

let them....

usually is the ppl who say this will DO THIS!

^^...

m i rite?

**

i know ler..

if THOSE PPL see my blog here,

sure say me or beh song me behind ar....

nvm..

i get use to it ler...

be a leader...

not to scare member say..

or scare ppl hate me...

be a leader...

jiu shi born to be hate by members...

cos we know what we do is good for them and unit...

just they dun understand and dun knot what we are usually doing...

be a leader...

every leader has different post...

not everyone can understand what other leaders are doing and learning...

including their feelings...

just to tell THOSE PPL here!

u guys already b FORM 4 Leaders!

not members!

u guys suppose to know what u guys are doing!

not hate or saying other leaders behind,

but to help each others solve all the probs in unit!

u guys de mouth born to be say ppl de har?

or only know how to say dont know how to do?

please be more understanding oso!

u think u guys lead a youth unit so senang lenang har..

do all the jobs so easy?

only need say no need do lar?

then all the things will be done?

u WAIT AND SEE LAr!

think maturely okay?

if u guys think u r better than anyone of them,

y not do it urself?

go find ppl go duty ?

16 ppl!

i know the actual day is MC2008,

the OC still selfish til not letting any COMMITTEE go duty wor..

and the BIG ppl say f2 and f3 members must learn marching that day..

so knot go..

then WHO GO?

i ask u guys lar!

I dont think that ALL committee will do things that day...

and i dun trust that No member dun want go duty?

dont give me thos silly reasons...

only silly ppl with stupid brain will do so!

i wont say sorry if i hurt anyone here...

cos i m just saying what i thk is rite..

nvm...

THOSE ppl who beh song,

or think what i said is just crap..

nvm....

fan Zheng the unit fall in U GUYS" hand~

not mine....

exleaders if want blame us,

nvm oso...

let them lar..

see who right, who wrong loe...

zui duo stand out and have a meeting nia mar..

zui duo dun want cum back nia mar..

what to scare?

if unit REALLY fall down in u guys' hand,

then i thk..

that moment the person will cry is u guys..

not me....

AArgggggghhhhhhh!!

haih....

everyday go school dont know do what ar....

so sienx..

teachers not allow us to absence...

not allow us to go library to study..

what the....

want absent from sch oso knot....

dad not allow...

so pek chek.....

y everyone can i cant wor...

ish...................

brg books go sch oso cant study de lar...

everyone talk talk talk thr....

so noisy...

how to study?

haih..................................
fast fast holiday liao.....

at least can study at home......

next time need tell my child dun go khs study....

no study week...

knot absence...

the teachers so loso......

so many ma huan de rules gok....

haih..

suan liao......

now my mood so bad.....

aiks...........

dun want study today...

watch movie whole afternoon nar....

haih............

now just like a panda in between the tree...

dont konw what to do.............

*sobsob*

want cry................

Dur!an...

hoho....

finally today can eat Durians!

my favourite lar..^^

eat so much...

tmr continue...

buahahaaa......XD...

~crazy~...ehekz....

whole day only feel want to sleep ar...

T.T.....

no study tiok anything.....

haih....

nvmnvm.....

eat Durians first!

*床边故事*

woo...
left about 3 more weeks jiu SPM loe....
so fast~
haih....
Form 3 kids finish PMR lo...
so good~~
y not us hor?ehek..XD
well,
this few days not really like to post blog ler...
cos nth much happen....
only scare scare about spm nia lo..
haih...
this few days dont know y...
bo xim bo xim to study like that..
die die~
hope my study mood will cum back!
very soon~
**
this few days like to sing a song....
"bedtime story"....
translate to chinese lar...
haha...^^...
quite nice song.....

*张韶涵 爱情旅程*

你给的体温

幸福的气氛

他在你身边

睡得好安稳

是你太残忍

还是我太笨

这样的容忍

有点太牺牲

不习惯你的眼神

在风中不安的变冷

离开的时候是过程

我为爱狂奔

每次当爱从心痛起程

我明白等待背后是伤痕

为了一个人

每夜不熄灯

爱一个人爱得透彻

忘不了爱走过的旅程

我依然相信幸福的可能

只有一个人

我愿意去等

在离开了以后还会心疼

她给的拥抱

幸福的气氛

你在他身边

笑得好天真

是我爱太深

还是太单纯

这样的转身

有点太牺牲

不习惯你的眼神

在风中不安的变冷

离开的时候是过程

我为爱狂奔

每次当爱从心痛起程

我明白等待背后是伤痕

为了一个人

每夜不熄灯

爱一个人爱得透彻

忘不了爱走过的旅程

我依然相信幸福的可能

只有一个人

我愿意去等

在离开了以后还会心疼

每次当爱从心痛起程

我明白等待背后是伤痕

为了一个人

每夜不熄灯

爱一个人爱得透彻

忘不了爱走过的旅程

我依然相信幸福的可能

只有一个人

我愿意去等

在离开了以后

还会心疼

Jia you!

a month from now ....

will be real SPM loe....

so nervous...

haih....

so much to learn and memorise....

so many exercises to do......

aiyoyo~

quick quick finish SPM na.......

want go traveling want go play in camp wor...^^....

well,

Good Luck to all my friends loe!{for SPM & PMR candidates!}

aiyeryer....hopeless...

First time i heard this...
haha.....
a question that we suppose to ask u guys before teacher ask hor..haha...
no lar...
we not that li hai lar...
like u guys..
haha..
till now still got teacher worry about u guys....
adui~
not about KHSRC de gok..
is just a small link camp eh....
till now still got teacher ask form 5,
"those form 4 got organized camp before de mah?"
funny ques?
and also worry u guys do everything last minute...
even i heard that....
only till the actual day morning u guys will pin up the backdrop hor...
so kiang ar....
u guys plan to go sch early 3 am hia?
u guys no think if sth go wrong last minute?
how to solve?
aiyoyo~
after i heard this ques....
i m thinking about year end camp ler...
got few form 5 heard about this jiu worry eh.....
even want go oso...
need think thrice.....
stil got form 5 say want help....
but we oso dont know whr to help u guys lar...
u guys everytime jiu shi quiet quiet like that....
till got prob baru konw lar....
the year end camp ha.....
see u guys looks like very senang like that ler ho....
or maybe u guys work hard ordy...
i dont know lar..
i not going to u guys de meeting mar...
i knot say anything...
what i want to say de...
or remind de..
ordy past it to ur HSL.....
want or dont want listen is up to guys ar..
cos i konw..
u guys owes scare...
scare we change all the things...
what to scare?
never fail before?
everything ready for u guys ler...
how to appreciate,
is up to u guys loe......
fan Zheng i remember..
got a teacher said..
u guys this badge is "SPECIAL" de...
i dont konw y that teacher will say like that..
but now i think i understand ler..
form 5,
u guys know oso hor..haha....

In my mind....

Out of sudden....

I thk about..............

sunday~

sunday loe...
tmr sch reopen looo....
haih...
need go sch so early......
even brg books thr oso hard to concentrate...
the teachers sure talk a lote thr de...
and whole class oso like pasar....
how to study?
haih....
want stay at home but the teacher sure say knot de...
want fast fast spm na......
after that no need control by teacher liao..
and yet no study week wor...
need till nov gok....T.T...
hate it but no choice....
well,
many hwk havent done......
hope that i can finish it today!
sure can la..
unless i lazy...ehek...XD
rainy day today.......
i didnt thought whatever i say is so chun.....
this morning still in sunny day....
who knows,
i told my mum that maybe today afternoon will rain....
aiks...
really rain...
haha.....
next time cant simply say things liao..
everytime say jiu chun de....XD....
zip up my mouth!
=X...ehek..

a quiet saturday....

saturday.....
wake up quite early....
help mum and dad..haha...
tonite just went for a small gathering with 2 best friends!
quite relax....
we eat and chat alote....
talk bout study, life, just...everything.....
including RC..haha....
well,
i like this small gathering....
as we can talk everything from the bottom of our heart....
they let me think of sth....
which i maybe need to appreciate...
which maybe sth impossible will be possible one day....
haha.....
who knows?~
do hope next time i can sit down and chat with them again....
maybe after spm le ba...then we got time!^^...
miss it!haha...
sisterS!
jia you oh!
^^

lalala....friday~

aha...
today realy go sematan ler....
well,
how to say really le ho?^^
neh,
fiona wong ar..haha...
she asked me whether i went to sematan on wednesday,
i told her nop ler....
she say she saw my bro's gf wo..
but i tell her impossible mar...
both of them at Genting that day ar...
how cum in sematan?!
haha....
i laugh at her ar...XD
then today i really go ler..haha....
go eat and play....aha..
with my parents na.....
long time no go out with them loe....
i mean outing lar.....haha......
cos owes busy during weekend...
but now its time to accompany them le ba..^^
today quite happy de....
ehek....
hope all my friends also as happy as me!^^

Happy Raya!

Happy Raya!
hahaz..
today went for visiting ler.....
go 6 houses...
woo....
eat so much ar....
especially curry...
yummy~
haha....
still got get "cheh pao"
chinese so call "ang pao" mar....
but malay is green de...
so call "cheh pao" lar...hahaz...XD
thats from my auntie..haha....
so good...
got eat, got "cheh pao" get gok...
one more one more...
still got one leng zai to see...
eh,
wait!
he is not malay...
pls dun misunderstand~
muahaha....XD.....
next year sure want to go again lah!
ahaz.....
but ler....
happy happy cum back jiu......
want pengsan liao....
my stomach knot tahan those spicy things.....
cum back straight away eat medi...aiks..XD...
hehez...
till now stilll.....
bua tiao mia....
hahaz..
means..
half-dead lar....
tmr still got 2 houses.....
ehehe...
see first ba...^.^...
well,
hope all my friends also enjoy this raya holidays!