think too much?or its true?

i think too much?or its true?

haiz..

i myself oso dont know..T.T

if i said those to my ex leaders..

sure i m going to be kill..

i know its my fault...

i dont think i m better or can lead better than anyone...

i dont think i show them a good example..

i dont think i teach them anything....

i myself oso dont know what have i done for them..

what have i done for unit...

say my body weak..

its not a reason...

u guys say i m too stress...

maybe 50% yes ba...

i know i play an important role in the unit..

but...

i dont think i manage it well...

members are getting less...as i know...

their attendance dont really good..

as compare to last years...

all so active..

but now...

only few active de will come..

the others jiu only activity actual day will go...

i know we should judge by their quality..not quantity..

i really scare...

afraid...

just maybe one day the unit will drop...

collapse...

i do hope it wont be...

i afraid start from my year...

they will follow the wrong path....

do the wrong things..

follow the bad example..

haiz..

worry everything....

i wanna put down..

really want....

anyway,

hope they could be fine...

do the right things they shud do..

learn more from their experiences..

teach the next badge members...

as i m sorry to say...

i didnt teach u all much...

hope u guys can learn much more from the elder ex leaders..

as they really good examples ...

which i didnt really learn from them..

and my improvement is slow..

so i do hope..

u guys can appreciate everything u guys gained...

use it in unit..

put effort in it...

let it grow higher....

if u guys do think i think too much or think wrongly,

want scold me, want say me anything..

i wont mind..

as long as...

i knw what i m doing...

what i m thinking...

i understand what u guys think...

just a sorry to say..

but i know action cost more than just saying...

just...

i afraid i cant do more..

but just..

a lil "sorry" to u all...